The Vainest Bitches Are Back By The Beach (!)

Hello.

Saturdays have been a bitch to me. I wont have fun when I hang out with my friends. I keep on feeling the guilt of not being at home, doing revision. I've been so not the Andrea-study-bitch-study no more. I am worried about next year if I might just end up in the last class, but still Im not studying. Its like I dont give a damn about it, but deep down I am scared as hell. What is wrong with me? I guess Im just too lazy. How could I change this habit of mine? Shit. Anyhow, today was boring, yes, like I said, Saturday has been a bitch to me. Port Dickson is very busy & tight up like its the second KL, -_- thanks to the election they're throwing near my house & I feel like a zombie for the past whole one week for having not enough sleep because they've been electing until two three in the morning. Stupid Barisan National & Pas.
I went to YC & met up with Suraya. We walked by the beach, had some ice creams then we camwhored, HAHA.

Idk what I was doing lah (!) HAHAHA.

This is Suraya, & she has been wanting a picture of herself jumping -_-

People there were staring at us. Macam lah tak pernah nak vain sesekali. And oh, there were this married couple in their wedding dress posing by the beach for their wedding album I guess & they look super sweet. But the bride's pose were so pathetic. Suraya & I laughed at her, & she was rolling her eyes & memang cannot go the way she does it. HAHAHAHA We so mean. Thats what we do best :P
Talking about mean, Suraya has been acting weird lately. I know this is very hard to say, especially from my mouth, but she have been nice to me. Hard to believe right? Nur Suraya Halim is nice to me? Oh my God, this is not happening -.- Gee.
After having dinner, we went to the tennis court & met up with Ayisha & Sarah.
Lol. It was hilarious. Suraya & I kept on disturbing Ayisha by screaming to her 'Ayisha has woah sexy butt' (!) She was pissed, & I almost got hit by the tennis racket. Few minutes later, they joined us camwhoring. Wah, everyone wants a picture with Andrea Syairah dont they? HAHA bitch perasan.

You knw, I wish I could do tht for real.

That cool tennis player with a sexy butt, Ayisha.

Oh guess what, I tried playing tennis & man its wayyy better than badminton :)
Lets hope Ayisha & Sarah could come over my house & play tennis since there's a tennis court that has never been used -.- HAHA, lame. I know. I shall continue watching Gossip Girl since Im still stuck in Season Two (!) I know what you'd say, 'Andrea apa tahu, bagai katak di bawah tempurung' or whatever hell, HAHA Im not good with all this peribahasa thingy mejingyy. Oh well, goodbye.

I ran, you chase, I fell, you caught, I hug, you kiss.
Cool?

Promise me that you will try.

Hello.

Think of me, think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me, once in a while
Please promise me you'll try
When you find that once again you long
To take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment
Spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea
But if you can still remember
Stop and think of me

Think of all the things
We've shared and seen
Don't think about the way
Things might have been

Think of me, think of me waking
Silent and resigned
Imagine me trying too hard
To put you from my mind
Recall those days
Look back on all those times
Think of the things we'll never do
There will never be a day
When I won't think of you

Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade
They have their season so do we
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me

I didnt expect for that ME to exist.

I've been missing 2008 for quite sometime now. I dont want to say it out loud nor scream to the entire world, because I know it wont bring me back there. I wish I could change the things I did. The things I regretted doing.

I was such a horrible person.

I was selfish, self-centered, ignorant, arrogant, you name it. All that in 2008, I had ruined my one in a life time best friendship I've ever hard with these special three people. I was being such a drama queen, that I could feel that they're annoyed with me. Real annoyed. I didnt know they would get sick of me until they'd put me aside. They couldnt even accept me for who I am anymore. Now I have been telling myself that I would fix all my mistakes. But its just that, I dont know how.
I've asked, what I did to them. But they refuse to answer. They'll be like 'nothing, we're fine'. How could it be fine if we're never the same anymore? Well, you want to know how I actually feel?

I feel left out whenever we're together.

A pathetic weekend

Hello.

I cant believe that this is actually happening.

Rauf has texted me. After few months of avoiding each other, he has finally spoken up. I am, define speechless. But I just somehow cant put the feeling I have right now in words. Im not happy, excited, disappointed nor frustrated, but its all of a sudden. Oh gee, Im sorry if this post bores you, but I somehow feel, urgh (!) OHHHHHMYGOD LAH. He confuses me.

End.

I shall now stop talking about him, since duh, Im just too paranoid.
Anyhow, since Indah's back from Australia, I spent my weekend at her house. & I thought that it would be you know, the best of the best. But it seems no. After fucking nine months not meeting each other, she gave me the expression with no excitement. I can still remember every detail how she looked at me through the huge mirror opposite the entrance of the house. Usually she would get all excited & jumping all around, hugging me tight. But all I got was a 'Oh hey'. I knew something was wrong days before she flew off to Australia. But what the heck.
By the way, I would like to mm, apologize to Sonia, for something, & as the other day after an open house, Anuar drove us to Sonia's house & Fariz, (Fariz is Indah's brother. We had bad history on a road trip, so I guess thts the answer of why he hates me so much until now) he sort of pissed me off & I burst into tears. Real bad. I actually regretted crying HAHA.

On Saturday, I hit Sunway with some friends. I got to reunite with Zaki (!) That annoying piece of electric hair, I've miss him badly. Indah & Naem made me go fatal awe, they were the sweetest thing, aww aww. Thanks to muah for introducing them. Im such a cupid (stupid), LMFAO. We went for bowling which I didnt play because I was wearing a mini dress, malu hehe. Oh oh, not to forget something thats actually stupid happened the same day. Nadiah wasted 84 bucks for an Hindi movie thanks to Anuar! HAHA. It was extremely boring, no offense to all Indians, but that movie was such bullshit that Im still figuring out why he suggest us to watch? We thought we were in a wrong cinema, but sadly, no -.- Not even until half of the movie, Nadiah & I left the cinema, & no duh, shopping of course : )

Well now, let the pictures do the talking, hurrah!

The bowling toilet with Nadiot.

Meet the sweetest couple, Naem & Indot ♥


The electric dude, Zaki. Lol jokes (!)


This is the dude who wasted my twelve bucks, Anuar.

The girls who ditch Indian movies for shopping, Nadiot & I : )

Dont Let Me Go

Hello.

Ryan has been treating me like shit since the Happy Eid holidays.

And Im getting sick of it.

What the fuck should I do?

Game knows Game

I faced my fear. The number one on the list fear.

Needles.

Nadiah went through with me, letting me hold her hand tightttttttly. God. It was pathetically scary. Yezz, I know you guys pierced your tongues, lips, eyebrows & whtev shitz, but yeah I only pierced my upper ear, HAHA. I've always wanted to pierce my tongue, but since going through piercing my ear was creeping me out, hell no that Im going to pierce my tongue eh? Lol. Anyhow, I hv fucking finals around the corner, so I shall study,

I hope.

A Combat Shot.

Hello.

I shall blog a long post when Im finally back in PD. Now currently in Bukit Jelutong & hard to say, but I actually regretted coming back here. Fariz Malik is such a party pooper. He ruined my entire mood. But what to say, I pity him for having that kind of specialty. I shall not talk about him now, its just a waste of time, kan kan kan ? Anyhow, gtg. Will blog soon : )


Sorry for the lame post.

October

Hello.



I would like to take the advantage here wishing to all my PMR candidate friends,

GOODLUCK (!)

And to Naem & Indah, congratulations reaching one year on the 7th October 2009 ! I am kezillionly happy for you guys : )

Happy October, peeps.

Selfish suits you.

A little appreciation would help, you know. Even a 'thank you' would be cool. I helped you with something that made you frustrated. I talked behalf of you, but still in the end, I'd get nothing.

Run along now, little girl.

Pretty Slutty

I looked at my reflection. The older girl in the mirror who shrugged back at me didnt look nearly as uncomfortable as I felt. Actually, she looked kind of cool & sexy.