Happy Halloween!

Hello.


Halloween wasnt a creepy day for me but well, okay. Went to Nilai & hang with my cousins. No, I didnt wear any costume if you were wondering. Just felt like being myself, *poyo. Haha. Anyhow, Azra & I werent really in the mood cause we were suppose to go down to KL, but pfft. Change of plans. And I just remembered tht I hv to bake cookies! Shit.

Until then,

You wont have the chance.

Hello.

I dont think we're friends like we used to. You're just selfish & ignorant. I cant believe I actually I forgave you. God. You're just the same as me, oh dear. But its not even worth it talking about you. So, next topic!

As you know that Suraya & Roisin came over my house few hours ago, well, we didnt do anything fun. Manicures & talk. Thats all. Oh yeah, it was the first time for Suraya having 'liquid' on her nails! Well, thats what she calls it. Aww : ) She wore red, green & orange! Very comel, lol. Right after that, we walked to a bakery store near my house & after buying some bread Roisin saw a homeless dude & we wanted to give some bread but we didnt actually had the guts to, Im sorry dude :( We felt so guilty, but yeah. Sigh.
Here's one funny convo we had about Jesus -_- I knw, meaaaaaaan!

Roisin : Jesus have no tits! Only girls do.
Andrea : EVERYONE HAS TITS RO!
Suraya : *sits quite like she doesnt even understand what we're talking about*

Here's some pictures of us. (:



♥

I gotta feeling, tht tonight is going to be a good one!

Hello.

FINALS ARE FUCKING OVEEER! Huraah.

Yes, as you can see I am feeling alive after the past few weeks. I cant actually blog quite a long one right now cause Suraya & Roisin are on the wayy to my house.

So, soon!

Tattoo your name across my heart

Emylya my sexy mum was telling me about an accident happened opposite our school & dude, motorcycle & taxi? Damn normal.

Emylya : There were blood all over the road , Drea.
Drea : Oh. Was anyone hurt?
Emylya : Dah kata blood ada all over the road, memang lah hurt -__-
Drea : AHAAHAHAHAHAHHA SORRY (!)

Hope it Gives You Hell

Hello.


One day to go to saying goodbye to bloody finals & hello fucking freedom (!)
Yes, I know. I sound sarcastic. Shut up. Anyhow, I dont think I'll be having the chance to go to All American Rejects. I know, pathetic. Zz. I gotta head to bed, nights!

You broke into my heart.

Do you remember what I was when we first met? I'd built walls around my heart, gated them, & thrown away the key. I had been hurt, I told you from the beginning. I'd been used, tricked, played with, but most of all, hurt. I thought it best to never fall in love again.

So I locked my heart.

You figured it out quite soon. I said dont fall in love with me. I cannot fall in love with you. I wont. Im too hurt, too damaged, too afraid to go through all of this once more. I'd decided love was just a scam. So we became friends. That was okay with me, & with you. It was all nice, comforting and I let myself trust you. You would listen to me for hours, as we talked about everything & nothing. You learned why I wasnt willing to let anyone love me, though you said you would never do that kind of a thing to me, I wasnt ready to trust you to test it out. I kept my walls intact even when I started remembering where I'd thrown the key. It was the only way to keep myself from falling in love. But then something happened. I woke up three weeks ago & realised that I love you. And you said you love me, you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didnt realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart. Now I know. You didnt find the key. You broke into my heart, & I let you.

Just dont break my heart.

Go away, love.

Hello.

This temptation of wanting October to end is driving me insane (!)
Please oh God, please. I just feel like Im stuck in a cave that hardly even have a way of giving my fat ass to go out. Oh yeah, I cant so freaking wait to be back with my loves. Over nights, parties, friends all around, man let it happen now.

Two days to go, & byeeeee bitches in PD.

Let me go, you're killing me.

Just boogie those boobies.

Hello.

Im fucking damn lost weh.

Should I..

Continue ignoring him or reply his texts & answer his calls?
What if he doesnt reply, or stop calling me anymore?
What if he was just playing around?
Just to see whether I care for him?

Superhuman.

I want to breathe the same air with you,

When I wake up, I want you to be the one I see first.

Being with you that night was the hardest thing to believe.

Somehow, I just wished I could stay with you forever until I open my eyes wide & see the real fact.

You couldnt be the one for me, I know.

Stop, Freeze, wth (?)

Hello.

I had the worst terrifying fight ever.

Honestly, you say mean things to me which made me cry at night wondering what I did to you until you can say something so heartless. I've never had mean intentions towards you. I've even tried my best to be a nice friend & always be there for you. But like you said I hv no dignity. So if you cant accept me fr who I am , then better yet dnt call me your friend. I accepted you fr who you are, being mean towards me & all, Im okay with it even though I fight back because I believe so tht I do hv the rights to whenever you hurt my feelings. You embarrassed me sometimes in front of our friends & Im still okay. You treated me like shit but still when you hv problems Im the one who you come running to. But since Im just the girl who's so bitchy & you cant stand me then okay. At least Im being myself, & just trying to be a good friend.

Im just saying wht I feel.

Happy 24th,

Hello.

Should be one year & six months now.

It was a regret talking to you, & disbelieve you could such a rude pig. Cant believe Im actually still counting even it doesnt bring us anywhere. Oh well, you really did put a spell.

Flying Fishes Anybody?

Hello.

I miss writing. A lot , sigh.

ST Canteen

Andrea : Jom pergi cari ikan.
Aniza : Jom! But nak ikan goreng ke ikan curry ke ikan hidup lagi?
Andrea : No no, ikan yang boleh terbang. We kena tangkap.
Aniza : Oh? Ada ke ikan terbang?
Andrea : Ada, belambak weh -.-
Aniza : Macam mana nak tangkap?
Andrea : Kita kena terbang lah jugak.
Aniza : Oh, cun. Bila?
Andrea : After school.
Aniza : *tesengeh-sengeh* OKAY!
Andrea & Joanne : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Aniza : Apahal? -_-

I swearrrr like I sweat.

Hello.

MIGRAINE,

Has been by my side like shitzz. Studying too much are also like shit. Whats more like shit when you dont have the voice to scream at all those pathetic losers to shut their mouth up? Tell me,

how?

No war, Yes peace.

My blog is practically dead already.
I wont be blogging much kot? I have nothing to tell. I have lost my blogging mojo. So yeaah, that's it.
Anyways, today and yesterday WASNT fun at all.
He was sadly alive in my mind which I thought of going on Ebay & find a gun to put in my mind & shoot him in there. But pffth? Logically, I cant. Bodoh.
I just feel like locking myself in the toilet all over again like what I did at Zai's house. The first time in my life, I actually felt so in peace.
Despite the tears & the feelings, but there it was, the place where I could actually let my so untempting feelings out, the toilet.
There werent voices, no one to judge or label me.
I felt like I was the only human alive in the world, until Zaiti knocked on the door & forced me to open up.
She was the only one who could actually be a real friend.
the one who's more gone-through-this-crap type of friend.
She went in the toilet & hugged me real tight, & calm me down.
God, thinking about it again just wants to make me cry. Thinking about how useless I was to just give it up like that. I could just have speak my mind out & I bet I would be in a better direction than wasting my tears.

In the end I still say,

I dont want to have regrets in life.

Just For Laughs : )

Post untuk hari ini, kita akan kutuk mengutuk orang famous. HAHAHA


Akon

Lisa : In the video of beautiful, he wore all black & the background was also black, all you could see was his shiny white teeth. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Lutfi : Akon nak datang Malaysia kan? Dia dah lah hitam, datang sini lagi lah hitam. LMAO.

Tash : Akon looks so oily, he can use the oil from his body to wax cars.

Adam Lambert

Lisa : Adam's just as gay as Homer Simpsons & Spongebob square pants. I wonder who is his gay partner. Kris Allen maybe?


Robert Pattinson

Tash : Lets start with the hair, has he never heard of a comb? Its those things with bristles that you use to brush your hair. Plus, he's so damn pale, he doesnt need make up to actually look like a vampire.

Lady GaGa

Divya : Well for starters, I dont even know if her hair is real. It looks like it might be made out of fibreglass. When someone comes at you with a knife, you can just break some off and cucuk the idiot. Someone needs to buy her a pants. You would think she has enough money, but looks like she doesnt.

Jonas Brothers

Divya : They cant pull of skinny pants. They should have a stylist.



*The rest is coming soon.

Grow Up,

Hello

There's this room at the girl's toilet in my school. That room is what I call the 'Confession Room', (very dramatic, I know HAHA) cause all over the wall there will be names people judging, saying this crap that crap. Pffth. It amuses me whenever I get in there & read it. But somehow, I never expected my name to be there, until today, one of my classmate saw two girls writing my name & Emylya's. I wont get surprised if it was one of my friends, HAHAA & guess what, unexpectedly yes, one of them was a close friend of mine. I havent been in that room for days, so I decided to go & check it out. I went in the stinking toilet & straight to the room. Right there. I stepped my left foot in, & turned my head left, right, back, there, I saw thought-would-be-big name of mine, 'Andrea motherfucking bithass'. Yes, I wrote it exactly how she wrote it. Without the 'C'. I thought I would just burst into tears after turning all around the room staring at my name & Emylya's.
But I actually laughed my ass off, after thinking that this person who wrote it actually feels like doing some kind of TAK JADI revenge to me until they forgot how the spell bitch.
I mean dude, its not that hard to write a 'c', no? HAHA While reading some others, I saw again, my name. Right around the corner of the wall saying 'If you have the pussy, come now & see me. You know who I am.' Of course that burned the smoking fire out of me. So I went to search for her, & tah-da, she's in the hall for the book fair crap. I stared at her, & she stared at me back, she suddenly seemed like she just pooped in her pants. I wanted to laugh but hello? I was in the middle of a serious problem (kot). Oh well, it was just a short conversation I had with her. All she had to say that I was the one who bitch around, & Im the who started first by writing her name on the wall. My dear girl who's unbrained, let me tell you something specific, I am not the only human being in the whole entire world that hates you. Wait, define the word hate. I loathe you. There could be more than one, aint it? I just dont understand, why me? Why must I be the victim, that you say guilty just because someone wrote your name in the toilet an idiot? In STPD, there are three thousand student, & still, why me?
Hmm, why should I even want to crack my head when its so obvious that you're just jealous of me because of being the superficial bitch, & you're just out of the lead of being a loathe homo.
Dear dear, it wasnt my fault that our friendship didnt work out. You were just too dumb saying that you're embarrass being friends with me JUST BECAUSE I SAY BAD WORDS. Well excuse me Miss-so-konon-innocent, dont tell me you've never even say anything bad? Oh oh, I think you have, bitching about me aint a bad thing to say eh?

Cecilia, you have too much problems in your hand, why dont you just put some of it in your ass?
And next time, could you just grow some balls & say that Im a bitch at MY face.
It amuses me a lot that you wrote it on the wall. People knows Im a superficial bitch, & yeah, just some people know the real you, a low-life bitch.

Stop being so dumb & grow up.

Too Out Of Touch, A?

Hello.

I really need to get out of this patient life, & get back on track now. I feel I am becoming so boring and out-of-touch with everything. Life has become so dull, with same boring routines. Nothing to do on my own, lying in bed all day, having medicines, listening to stupid TV & surfing internet all day. I have had so much over dose of all this that nothing interests me anymore. Not even shopping. Very cliche, I know. I really need a change now. I cant even think of what to write here. Its only cribbing and cribbing! I think even my readers are going to stop looking into this blog now.

I want to get out of this bed, dress up well, go out, see things around, do some shopping, go to eat out, hang out with friends.. & lots more!

Everything that I did before this phase.

Forever shall be.

Hello.

*Mum & Norb watching tv

Mum : If Stink wants to make love with me, I give him! You dont be mad ah? Dont divorce me. I LIKEEEEE HIM LAH!

Norbert : *mumbles*

Mum : Never mind lah, I get to make love with Stink, you can go do with anyone you love, like Sandra Bullock, okay?

Norbert : No. Now, I got more than Sandra Bullock. Since you said I can make love with anyone I love. Michelle Pfeiffer, blonde & red head, brunette & black hair.

Drea : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
*falls down from chair & continue laughing*

Here I Scribble

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think work only for the best, and accept only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!”

-Christian D. Larson

The Vainest Bitches Are Back By The Beach (!)

Hello.

Saturdays have been a bitch to me. I wont have fun when I hang out with my friends. I keep on feeling the guilt of not being at home, doing revision. I've been so not the Andrea-study-bitch-study no more. I am worried about next year if I might just end up in the last class, but still Im not studying. Its like I dont give a damn about it, but deep down I am scared as hell. What is wrong with me? I guess Im just too lazy. How could I change this habit of mine? Shit. Anyhow, today was boring, yes, like I said, Saturday has been a bitch to me. Port Dickson is very busy & tight up like its the second KL, -_- thanks to the election they're throwing near my house & I feel like a zombie for the past whole one week for having not enough sleep because they've been electing until two three in the morning. Stupid Barisan National & Pas.
I went to YC & met up with Suraya. We walked by the beach, had some ice creams then we camwhored, HAHA.

Idk what I was doing lah (!) HAHAHA.

This is Suraya, & she has been wanting a picture of herself jumping -_-

People there were staring at us. Macam lah tak pernah nak vain sesekali. And oh, there were this married couple in their wedding dress posing by the beach for their wedding album I guess & they look super sweet. But the bride's pose were so pathetic. Suraya & I laughed at her, & she was rolling her eyes & memang cannot go the way she does it. HAHAHAHA We so mean. Thats what we do best :P
Talking about mean, Suraya has been acting weird lately. I know this is very hard to say, especially from my mouth, but she have been nice to me. Hard to believe right? Nur Suraya Halim is nice to me? Oh my God, this is not happening -.- Gee.
After having dinner, we went to the tennis court & met up with Ayisha & Sarah.
Lol. It was hilarious. Suraya & I kept on disturbing Ayisha by screaming to her 'Ayisha has woah sexy butt' (!) She was pissed, & I almost got hit by the tennis racket. Few minutes later, they joined us camwhoring. Wah, everyone wants a picture with Andrea Syairah dont they? HAHA bitch perasan.

You knw, I wish I could do tht for real.

That cool tennis player with a sexy butt, Ayisha.

Oh guess what, I tried playing tennis & man its wayyy better than badminton :)
Lets hope Ayisha & Sarah could come over my house & play tennis since there's a tennis court that has never been used -.- HAHA, lame. I know. I shall continue watching Gossip Girl since Im still stuck in Season Two (!) I know what you'd say, 'Andrea apa tahu, bagai katak di bawah tempurung' or whatever hell, HAHA Im not good with all this peribahasa thingy mejingyy. Oh well, goodbye.

I ran, you chase, I fell, you caught, I hug, you kiss.
Cool?

Promise me that you will try.

Hello.

Think of me, think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me, once in a while
Please promise me you'll try
When you find that once again you long
To take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment
Spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea
But if you can still remember
Stop and think of me

Think of all the things
We've shared and seen
Don't think about the way
Things might have been

Think of me, think of me waking
Silent and resigned
Imagine me trying too hard
To put you from my mind
Recall those days
Look back on all those times
Think of the things we'll never do
There will never be a day
When I won't think of you

Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade
They have their season so do we
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me

I didnt expect for that ME to exist.

I've been missing 2008 for quite sometime now. I dont want to say it out loud nor scream to the entire world, because I know it wont bring me back there. I wish I could change the things I did. The things I regretted doing.

I was such a horrible person.

I was selfish, self-centered, ignorant, arrogant, you name it. All that in 2008, I had ruined my one in a life time best friendship I've ever hard with these special three people. I was being such a drama queen, that I could feel that they're annoyed with me. Real annoyed. I didnt know they would get sick of me until they'd put me aside. They couldnt even accept me for who I am anymore. Now I have been telling myself that I would fix all my mistakes. But its just that, I dont know how.
I've asked, what I did to them. But they refuse to answer. They'll be like 'nothing, we're fine'. How could it be fine if we're never the same anymore? Well, you want to know how I actually feel?

I feel left out whenever we're together.

A pathetic weekend

Hello.

I cant believe that this is actually happening.

Rauf has texted me. After few months of avoiding each other, he has finally spoken up. I am, define speechless. But I just somehow cant put the feeling I have right now in words. Im not happy, excited, disappointed nor frustrated, but its all of a sudden. Oh gee, Im sorry if this post bores you, but I somehow feel, urgh (!) OHHHHHMYGOD LAH. He confuses me.

End.

I shall now stop talking about him, since duh, Im just too paranoid.
Anyhow, since Indah's back from Australia, I spent my weekend at her house. & I thought that it would be you know, the best of the best. But it seems no. After fucking nine months not meeting each other, she gave me the expression with no excitement. I can still remember every detail how she looked at me through the huge mirror opposite the entrance of the house. Usually she would get all excited & jumping all around, hugging me tight. But all I got was a 'Oh hey'. I knew something was wrong days before she flew off to Australia. But what the heck.
By the way, I would like to mm, apologize to Sonia, for something, & as the other day after an open house, Anuar drove us to Sonia's house & Fariz, (Fariz is Indah's brother. We had bad history on a road trip, so I guess thts the answer of why he hates me so much until now) he sort of pissed me off & I burst into tears. Real bad. I actually regretted crying HAHA.

On Saturday, I hit Sunway with some friends. I got to reunite with Zaki (!) That annoying piece of electric hair, I've miss him badly. Indah & Naem made me go fatal awe, they were the sweetest thing, aww aww. Thanks to muah for introducing them. Im such a cupid (stupid), LMFAO. We went for bowling which I didnt play because I was wearing a mini dress, malu hehe. Oh oh, not to forget something thats actually stupid happened the same day. Nadiah wasted 84 bucks for an Hindi movie thanks to Anuar! HAHA. It was extremely boring, no offense to all Indians, but that movie was such bullshit that Im still figuring out why he suggest us to watch? We thought we were in a wrong cinema, but sadly, no -.- Not even until half of the movie, Nadiah & I left the cinema, & no duh, shopping of course : )

Well now, let the pictures do the talking, hurrah!

The bowling toilet with Nadiot.

Meet the sweetest couple, Naem & Indot ♥


The electric dude, Zaki. Lol jokes (!)


This is the dude who wasted my twelve bucks, Anuar.

The girls who ditch Indian movies for shopping, Nadiot & I : )

Dont Let Me Go

Hello.

Ryan has been treating me like shit since the Happy Eid holidays.

And Im getting sick of it.

What the fuck should I do?

Game knows Game

I faced my fear. The number one on the list fear.

Needles.

Nadiah went through with me, letting me hold her hand tightttttttly. God. It was pathetically scary. Yezz, I know you guys pierced your tongues, lips, eyebrows & whtev shitz, but yeah I only pierced my upper ear, HAHA. I've always wanted to pierce my tongue, but since going through piercing my ear was creeping me out, hell no that Im going to pierce my tongue eh? Lol. Anyhow, I hv fucking finals around the corner, so I shall study,

I hope.

A Combat Shot.

Hello.

I shall blog a long post when Im finally back in PD. Now currently in Bukit Jelutong & hard to say, but I actually regretted coming back here. Fariz Malik is such a party pooper. He ruined my entire mood. But what to say, I pity him for having that kind of specialty. I shall not talk about him now, its just a waste of time, kan kan kan ? Anyhow, gtg. Will blog soon : )


Sorry for the lame post.

October

Hello.



I would like to take the advantage here wishing to all my PMR candidate friends,

GOODLUCK (!)

And to Naem & Indah, congratulations reaching one year on the 7th October 2009 ! I am kezillionly happy for you guys : )

Happy October, peeps.